7. In Her Hand 

Another month is wasted, and the days seem shorter now

And I think I must be doing something right

OK, so I'm still lonely

And OK so I'm still dumb, but

Hey, I think she smiled at me tonight

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It's a definite sign, I'll take it

Though it was probably never meant for me

I wish I could tell her this was never my responsibility

I'd be stupid to hang around here

But even stupider still, I'm going home

I guess some people just aren't cut out

For a life where they are not alone

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The trees are getting weaker and my will has followed suit

And I think that I might have made a mistake

So maybe I was wrong

To swear to give her everything

Well, maybe it was more than she could take

But if she is worth fighting for

Someone else would have done it a long time ago

And there's nothing left for her to tell me

That I don't already know

But I was destined to reach out to her

Though it was only to give the upper hand

While she won't even talk to me

It seems to go along with what I've planned

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Hey, things are always changing

I know, I will hold out for the best

God, it just can't get worse than this

Hey, things will come around

I'm so sincere, I've got to be a hit with her

But things still feel amiss

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Another month is wasted and I'm afraid I'm running out

Could everything begin to fall in line

OK, so things all work out

And OK so thank you fate

Now I can tell her anything

Except that she is mine

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Maybe it's just because I'm greedy

Maybe I should quit while I'm ahead

I won't try to be satisfied

But maybe I should bite my lip instead

She's impressed that the leaves are falling

I'm amazed that she finally took a stand

As if things could be stalled from crashing

Down to earth, just to end up in her hand

Just to end up in her hand

8. Henry/Hank

Broken blind spots in the corners of your mind

They will run by you in your dreams

It's filed and classified to be redefined

When this is not what it seems

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All this waiting, the shadows all around

Think it's beginning to take its toll

All this dreaming, I let my hopes go soaring

Then it's a conscious fight to keep control

All this emotion, forced out in happy tidings

Left behind this sadness deep inside

Then all this letting go, and the reason far away

It's a sign of weakness for me to hide

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Chorus

If I never have to think about it

Put it out of my mind

Just a steady flow of moderation

I can surely find a substitute and

I'll be feeling just fine

No highs or lows with automation

Woah

Pushing harder to keep the swelling down

Can't interrupt it from taking hold

Pushing faster to keep the senses busy

You can still ignore it, just don't let it unfold

Pushed out of business

Too much time and too much triumph

Still the room is empty when you lock it tight

Feeling pushed around and you reach the boiling point

It's a sign of weakness, it won't see the light

Chorus

Reason now out of sight

I'll fly all the way tonight

What seems worse when the world is dark

Is only hidden by the light

Finding mystery, the shadow dances now

Don't dare uncover the truth it tells

I found an angel, I can let her visit me

But I'll never give in to the solace she sells

I found a dreamer, running high and turning sideways

There somehow lies the strength to stand alone

Why seek the answer now, green is pleasant idleness

Why question reality, just make your own

Chorus

Woah 

9. The Night Won't...

One day these things will get too deep

It has to happen, it has to happen

Then I won't ever fall asleep

But I'll keep dreaming, oh I'll keep dreaming just to say

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I've seen the light

And it's hurt my eyes

But it's just a memory today

'Cause the night won't go away

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Nothing to show for all I've done

It's very fleeting, it's so defeating

And there's nothing new under the sun

But it's disappearing and that's what I'm fearing, and I say

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It looks so bright

But it's just a guise

And truth is not one to delay

And the night won't go away

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And I say, I've seen the light

And it's hurt my eyes

I've blown ten thousand wishes

On starry skies

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But time won't start when you depart

And I am forced to stay

And the night won't go away

And the night won't go away

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10. It's Just

It's just a game on the surface

But now you're looking through

And everything is new

If what it really means

Is hardly what it seems

Well, no one fools me

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Am I taking you for granted,

Do my insults cut too deep

Is the seed that we have planted

On a slope that's much too steep

Is my apathy contagious, do I drown you in my fears

Your presence is courageous, oh I don't deserve your tears

​

So just imagine my surprise

When I jumped in and closed my eyes

If it's a challenge you impose

I'll tooth and nail up to my nose

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It's a common misconception that it's silence we should fear

But in slumber's resurrections it's your words ringing in my ears

We maintain a peaceful season through an amorous disguise

Would we fight if we had reason or would reason cloud our minds

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Why should I have to ask at all

This one is not yours to call

And if we separate the costs

Then you will see what I have lost

​

If you knock then I'll answer the door

No one else makes me give any more

If the answer's been there though we've searched everywhere

Well then, why is this peace such a bore?

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It's a straight and narrow crash course as we suit up for our roles

We encounter quite a task force when we leave our assigned poles

I am asking your forgiveness though I'm not one to back down

See, I'm fighting off this sickness

Needing someone else around

​

I know you expect much more

I promise, I know the score

And I'll respond when you accuse

It's what you risk, not what you lose

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So just give me some time to explore

If these chains are what I'm searching for

'Cause I'm coming around since I like what I've found

But the drums start to pound

And I'm scared by the sound

That you won't have to cry anymore

11. My Hero
So glad to finally hear from you

Oh, that's funny, oh that's true

Oh, it's amazing what a little time can do

You never talked about the creep

But talk is useless, talk is cheap

You're pretty shallow if you think he's pretty deep

Compensate for this disparity

Be unobtrusive, be like me

It's not so super, this superiority

Hostility is in the air

I don't hate you, I don't care

I can't look down on you, it's impolite to stare

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So sharpen your steel

I'm heeding your call

And testing your mettle through it all

Away we go

You're my hero

You don't know that

It's begun

Nobody's special, you're the only one

So sure that this will never work

So be reflexive, be a jerk

Ignore what doesn't have a benefit or perk

Don't talk, we'll chalk it up to chance

He can't take it, he can't dance

He's made a circus out of Bread and cirucmstance

Crossing your heart

And wondering why

I'm sticking this needle right into your

I maintain

You're my hero, you're insane

Now have your fun

Nobody's different you're the only

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So glad to see you're doing fine

So hang around here, hang the swine

Hey, any friend of yours must be a friend of mine

Will morning make you understand

He's half awake now, half a man

So I won't wave at him, I never was a fan

​

If I'm doing fine

And you're doing well

If you're going places

I'm going to

​

Hell with that

You're my hero

You're not fat

Now you're not done

Everyone's bitter, you're the only one

To see

Sadness isn't necessary

You're so animated

Look, now I can read you

Like a comic book

 
12. Sweet Misery

Chorus:
Oh my sweet misery won't you comfort me again
And take all my life from me, you are my only friend
You are my only friend

Hey well maybe when I'm famous you will see me on TV
Could that provoke your call
Cause I'll never get to tell you how you changed my life
You made a mess of it all
And I wonder what's become of you, how you look now that you're grown
If they let you get that far
And I have so many questions, but you left before I knew them
Now who knows where you are

Chorus

It's an action figure keepsake that helps me recall
The games that we would play
And your tears would fall so silently, you would never share your pain
You hid it all away

And the lump in my throat is a constant reminder of your
Quiet perfection, of our effortless connection
What's been missing since you left me is our
Innocent laughter, what comes after?  All I know

Chorus (3x)  

 

13. Going Out

Tell the sun to shine in, geez, we need much more of that

I feel her walking by me, feel my heart is turning black

A feeling of a memory of some courage I once had

When life seemed like a bowl of something

One gigantic clothing ad

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If some fire of desire is what it is all about

Then the last disastrous furnace is going out

​

The rain drops have collected in her pale December eyes

Learned that drowning in your sorrows means that someone always dies

And if she talks to angels, who was I to interrupt

It was my dream to love her, was my job to fuck things up

​

She thinks that he's so holy

Never acted so devout

Now the patron saint of waiting is going out

​

I don't care now anymore

I swear I had a purpose once but I forgot what for

And I don't care now anymore

No, she pointed me to heaven and she pointed to the door

And going out

​

I see her in the distance of the corner of my eye

She's much too far to talk to, much too far to say goodbye

Now it feels like something's ending though it didn't even start

If our worlds once collided somehow now we're worlds apart

​

The final bell is ringing, it looks like I have lost this bout

Now please tell her she once mattered

Tell her how I wish I had her

Tell her all these dreams are shattered

Going out

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Bonus Track: Intellectual (recorded on a borrowed 4-track)

When my alarm went off this morning I was not amused

I had to leave my dream behind

I was in the pantheon of cultural sophistication

Located somewhere in my mind

​

Voltaire was listening intently as I revealed my

Deepest thoughts for him

He told me he had never heard a lecture so enlightening

Historical significance of tin

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But as I was leaving him and he began to turn away

Though he refused my calling card

I'm sure he smiled when he heard me say

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Chorus
Hey look at me, I'm an intellectual

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So I proceeded to embark upon another journey

Into the world of common man

At times like these I have to limit my vocabulary

To make sure they understand

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I took a break from all the rigors of my syllabus to

Spend time with my adoring fans

I met some wide-eyed girls who marveled at my perspicacity

Tried to comprehend my plans

​

You might think it'd be difficult because their minds are very weak

But I just keep on talking because

I know they just want to hear me speak

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Chorus

So self assured and so heterosexual

​

And I like Sartre, Camus, Tennyson

And Thackeray and Kant and Nietzsche

Gerety and Dostoyevsky, Pope, Pritchard

Don Elliott, and Me

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I'm much smarter/I'm much better

We're all intellectuals

And I believe that there's an e e cummings planet out there

And God help me, I swear on the New Yorker

I'm going to find it!

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But you can't ignore me now, or think of all that you would miss

A man at the top and the cream of the crop

And an incredibly engaging conversationalist

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Chorus

I laugh at your thoughts, they're so ineffectual